Weighing in

My first weigh in was better than I expected.....4.6 pounds. HOWEVER, I have been known to gain or lose 10 pounds in a matter of a week with no explanation, so I'm not really counting on that. The number of pounds I weigh doesn't have much true relevance to what I look like. I really go more by how my clothes fit and although I think it's minutely better in that department, I haven't noticed that much difference. When I can put on this one particular pair of jeans straight out of the dryer without having to struggle and bend to strech them out, THEN I am at my goal (and coincidentally where I was a year and a half ago after the South Beach diet).

The other drawback to the good result is I think it creates a false sense that losing weight is easy. I think to myself, "Oh, if I gain a little back, look how easy it is to lose", which makes it really hard to maintain over the long haul.

I know a lot of it is genetics and metabolism. I have to eat pretty often (every 2-3 hours) so I have to constantly work the points to make sure I can keep up the grazing. On the other hand we have B......who is working the points so that he can eat the biggest, most borderline food he can. But then he doesn't eat anything else the rest of the day. It's hard to hear him talk about his meatloaf sandwich or calzone and still staying under his points, knowing that me eating that would cause me to starve the rest of the day. Not to mention he gets more points a day than me to start with! Somehow five little 1-point snacks don't seem as satisfying as a big sub sandwich! But that's what I have to do to keep my blood sugar level.

I guess we all have our own issues to deal with when it comes to food. Like the leader at the WW meeting said last night, we have to re-learn how to EAT. And properly, this time around. I learned some pretty bad eating lessongs growing up and this certainly doesn't come easy. I would kill for a scone right now, but then I couldn't eat dinner. And somehow that doesn't seem worth it to me!